I think it’s pretty obvious by my non-existential blog posting as of late, that I am stuck in a real blogger’s rut. Over the many years of blogging, this has been a phase to come and go. I absolutely love blogging, I love to archive, I love to share, I love to photograph, I love to create. Alas, something in me has just not been quite right in me the last couple months.
Don’t get me wrong, I have a lot going right for me in my life at the moment. I know that 2015 will be a year of amazing opportunities for me and I have some amazing people in my life that keep the light inside me. Please don’t confuse this as a depressing reflection on my life, I love my life, it really is just a completely blogging related woe.
My home life suddenly became unbearably discomforting at the beginning of this year, I had to make an abrupt decision to find a new home and move out. Moving house is a stressful event for anyone, especially to someone already so stress prone such as myself. I felt too stressed to do anything but pack and organise my stuff during this time. I moved two weeks ago now, and I must admit, I am feeling much more content in my new house, but I’m still not feeling completely settled.
Moving house is definitely at the core of my instability, but I continue to find a million and one other reasons not to blog.
1) It’s not helping that it’s the midst of a hot Australian summer here. I loathe getting dressed in the heat and I find summer fashion so boring and uninspired.
2) I feel super discouraged about needing to downsize my wardrobe from a 6 door wardrobe to a 3 door wardrobe because of the move. My wardrobe is currently so incredibly cluttered and I can’t handle it! I have mad OCD about organising and de-cluttering, so bad that some days I am far too anxious to even unveil the overflowing chaos that is my wardrobe. I’m fretting, that I have no room for any new clothes, but I also have no money for new clothes as a full time student anyway.
3) On top of all this, I’m struggling to find places to take photos around my new home. I’ve honestly started contemplating going back to my old bedroom photos and just having to give up on the idea of photo quality.
I really do apologise for any inconveniencies caused by my blogger’s rut. If anyone has any advice, or knows how I’m feeling, I’d love to hear from you. I think just about anything would be helpful to move me through this right now.